As soon as the rain hits the pavement I know I’m going to be taken back to that place,
Those memories of summer still sit in the back of my head,
Spending all my wasted nights walking the streets with my friends,
But we’re not the same people we used to be back then,
Maybe that is why tears are falling just as hard as the rain is outside of my window,
I don’t miss you,
I miss the memories and who you used to be.
If someone asks when you left,
I’ll always describe it to them as if it was last night even though it was 18 months ago,
Maybe I do this because the memory is still fresh in my mind because I can’t let go;
Or maybe I refuse to.
Maybe it is because it feels like nothing has changed,
I still feel that same numbing ache in my chest,
Most nights I wake up with my arm stretched out searching for your body in the place you used to rest.
I go through my daily routine like it is the day after you walked away,
Bags under my eyes from the lack of sleep,
Skin and bones because I feel like I can’t eat.
Sometimes I wonder if I’m ever going to let go,
But how can I let go when there is constant reminders of you everywhere I turn?
i can’t move on if i’m still in love with you (via iclungtoy0u)
I’ve watched countless girls fall apart because of you,
I hate myself for being one of them.
im so drunk i can barely see but i can still feel everything
still feel your skin that warmed when I pressed my lips to it
my phone keyboard feels foreign against my fingertips now that you never reply
i just want to read something from you or hear your voice again
i finally understand what it means when people say that home doesnt have to be a place
because i dont feel at home in my own house
i belong in your arms
please come home